Newsletter: March 2012

The Wicca Series
Newsletter
March 2012

With Mercury entering into retrograde on Monday 12th March and Mars still in retrograde, everything may begin to feel a little chaotic, both electronically and emotionally.

Make sure you take time out to appreciate those around you as well as yourself.

With Autumn Equinox on the 22nd, remember to use the time to express gratitude for this year’s harvest and for all the wonderful things and people we have in our lives.

Product Specials

For these specials you can email your orders and queries to info@thewiccaseries.co.za

New job charged candles: Short – R 40.00, Tall – R 80.00
Earth Healing Charged Candles (only tall) R 80.00

News from the community

Heavenly Healing

½ hour back massage now only R 100 – normal price R 165.

Our in-house psychic – readings with tea leaves and tarot cards, she has 40 years plus experience, and she is very accurate, can see numbers, dates, initials and names, which is very rare for a psychic. The price for a reading is R 350, and she reads for an hour to an hour and a half.

We also have, newly installed, a coffee bar in the shop. Clients can, now, while they wait for treatments, or friends, or are just browsing, buy a cup of coffee / cappuccino as well as a muffin, and chill in our very relaxed environment.

PENTON Independent Pagan Media

PENTON is looking for content writers or regular (weekly) bloggers.
If you're a writer / blogger and would like to contribute your work for publication, contact the Editor at editor@penton.co.za

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Purple Lizard reading special:

We decided to offer 25% discount on ALL our internet readings till the 25th.
• Step 1: Go to the website: http://www.purplelizard.co.za/shopping/
• Step 2: Click on DISTANCE READINGS and read through all of them. Step 3: E-mail me the names of the ones you want. Step 4: I will e-mail you the discounted price and bank details.

FRANS-CAREL’S ADVICE
Frans-Carel can be mailed at
frans@purplelizard.co.za should you wish to get advice from him, or just want to talk over some pertinent issues in our life. This is a free service, so please do make use of it, but please do not misuse it! For formal consultations and public speaking event bookings, you may contact Frans-Carel directly on the email address above.
Remember this is an informal “chat”, nothing more; for more in-depth and detailed reporting, please review his spiritual readings at http://www.purplelizard.co.za/shopping/.

Charmaine & Frans-Carel
084 756 7038
info@thepurplelizard.co.za

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I wish you wonderful blessings for the month of March and over the Autumn Equinox.

Nathalie Beulah

#bipolarcraziness

I decided that in order to help create bipolar awareness, that I would spend a day updating my facebook statuses with details of what I go through as a bipolar sufferer. Here are these updates and as I share them with you, please feel free to share them with others so that everyone can begin to understand this disorder.

I am not looking for sympathy or pity but to create awareness of a serious disorder and I look forward to hearing from others affected by it.

·         Bipolar people can be compared to pitbulls. They're misunderstood. People fear, pity and misjudge them & expect them to attack and bite at any moment without warning.

·         When I wake up in the morning I seldom get up straight away. I often just lie there and stare at the wall, ceiling or out of the window. If I didn't have a morning routine I had to get through, I might just stay there all day in bed. Just lying and staring and listening to the noise in my head.

·         The noise might just be the worst part. Everybody has experienced this, when you are feeling stressed or worried about something & when you try to fall asleep at night you can't because your thoughts are racing around in your head. Except for me this 'noise' is always there, every day. From the time I wake up until when I finally manage to fall asleep. Constant busy, racing thoughts.

·         Sometimes I might have a sudden strange response to something unseen. I might swear or groan, mumble or say something strange & out of context or have a seemingly nervous tick. But not to worry, this is just me responding to something going on in my own head. You should see or hear me when nobody is around, it's bipolar induced tourette syndrome!

·         I am a 'cutter'. Meaning I cause physical harm to me, usually by cutting myself. I haven't hurt myself in about a year now, with the exception of my latest tattoo. It's not an achievement, I'm not proud of myself. Just because I'm not doing it doesn't mean I'm not thinking about it.

·         I started cutting myself in my teens, sure I went through all the excuses, such as "feeling pain reminds me I'm alive" etc. The truth is that when the body feels physical pain the brain releases endorphins which helps to numb the physical pain and makes me 'feel good'. Which is better than feeling the way I do most of the time. It is addictive! A lot of bipolar sufferers have addictive personalities, whether it's pain, drugs or alcohol. It is a way of self-medicating because for a moment you feel better and that you don't have to be trapped inside yourself.

·         Every bipolar person has a 'primary' emotion, one that consumes them more than any other. Mine is ANGER. A sudden rage is an emotion I know too well. My unexpected change to this state of mind has often been the cause of things being thrown around and broken. As things break, whether it is a cellphone or coffee mug, often I feel as if I am breaking too and falling apart.

·         After the anger comes the feeling of sadness and hurt and often tears. Then comes the depression, and often paranoia as well. Suddenly feeling like the world is against you and you can't trust anyone, friends or family. It took me a while to get to the point where I could make myself realise that the paranoia was part of my emotional cycle. Before it was something that would completely consume me and I'd feel that my world had completely fallen apart and I was lost and alone.

·         Once as a young child, I went with my mom to the hospital to visit an aunt, who I was told had had a "mental breakdown". I was too young to understand and I asked my mom what it meant. My mother simply replied "it means that she can't stop crying". It was a powerful image for me at such a young age.

·         There are three main types of bipolar; Manic bp, Depressive bp and Manic Depressive bp. I am type 2, Depressive Bipolar. This means I am more often depressed than happy or "high". It is not a fun way to go through life.

·         I am able to focus on positive emotions and feel happiness, it takes a lot of work but it is possible. Sometimes though these feelings just feel so far out of reach and I wish to be manic just to feel a slight glimmer of joy. Mania can be fun, except for the inevitable emotional crash that will follow afterwards.

Here are a few updates that didn’t make it online that I would like to share with you:

• When I am manic, I am uncharacteristically joyful and hugely optimistic. Anything and everything is possible. I tend to make big plans for the future that will change my life and change my world. These are seldom based in reality and most of these ideas ever see the light of day
• When I am spiralling down from mania, I begin to feel stupid and useless and as if I will never amount to anything. I turn from joy to depression in an instant.
• Do I have darker thoughts that go beyond self harm? Can my thoughts turn suicidal? Honestly? Yes.
• Why don’t I act out my fatal fantasies? Why am I still here? No matter how dark I might feel, I still appreciate life and living more than I do death. Suicide is a purely selfish act and I cannot bring myself to hurt the people I love in this way. My cats also help. I cannot bring myself to abandon them as I know they will never forgive me.

All of this is just the tip of the iceberg and there are so many things I have not even mentioned. To be a “socially acceptable” person I have to keep this hidden and bottled up within myself. I am always waging a war against me. Sometimes though it does spill out into the world and my special brand of crazy affects those around me.

A lot of this has been hard for me to share but I have done it with the hope that I can reach out and help someone.

Hoping for a Miracle

I can say that this week I really for the first time realised that in spell casting and prayers, regardless of religious choice, in essence we are all hoping for miracles to happen.

When we do these things it is because we are searching for something to happen within our lives. No matter how big or small we would like the outcome to be we create a spell or pray to a deity, guardian or our ancestors because we have got to a point where we realise we cannot reach this outcome on our own.

We acknowledge that there is something outside of ourselves, something unseen, we admit that we need help and we hope to receive it from this source. We cannot necessarily see how we are going to achieve our desires but we hope and pray to receive them. We are looking to receive a miracle.

It might seem to be a rather strange way of looking at it but when I thought about it, I really liked the idea of seeing something that manifests as a miracle, no matter how small or big it might be. When a look at what I have wished for in this light, it makes me feel even more grateful for having received it.

Gratitude is a powerful and driving force and having it in my life is something I can really cherish. It helps to mould and change how I see my world and on a bad day a little gratitude can go a long way.

If you feel that you are having a particularly bad day, look at the little miracles you have in your life already. You will find that it naturally evokes the feeling of gratitude. Let that emotion fill you and you will begin to feel a change within yourself.

The word “miracle” alone can stir up such strong emotions and it is this energy charge that can help us to manifest something in our lives. This energy is there for us to use so why not take full advantage of it.

If things are beginning to feel a little tough then remember there is nothing wrong with hoping for a miracle, you are not alone in this life and anything is possible.